in the growing race of losers...

its strange how once you get use to something you hate, you don't want to leave it even if it makes your life suck. example: i usually sit alone at lunch despite having "friends" in that lunch period and i usually just get stared at a lot. and i got use to it. and today some of those "friends" i suppose felt pity for me and told me to come sit with them. and guess what, i was reluctant to. i didn't want to be pitied mostly, and also it just didn't seem natural. it has become my thinking time. i realized how much i really dislike people. all people.