i have changed so much it scares me.
i am the world's biggest loner. i hate socalization. even with people i consider to be good friends. i just hate people. and ever since my family figured out about my um "other side", they tell fuckn everybody about it thinking they can make sure other people don't piss me off or whatever. but they tend to even more now. they act like i constantly have a gun to my head and freak out every time i say die or ask where a knife is or anything having to do with that. they're even trying to make me see a therapist. no thank you...i don't like people. they make me go out all the time because they think it isn't healthy for me to be up in my room 24/7, but they have it completely backwards. if i am alone, nothing is there to depress me. i just lay in my bed and listen to my ipod or run a little. and i can do what i want. i don't have to deal with other people. just myself. i can handle that. but when i am around other people i see how perfect they look and how happy they seem and it just kills me. those two are killing me. who would have thought, my own parents.
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hey. Just dropping in to say hi. Judging by how long ago this post was, you've quit blogging, and arent likely to even find this. At least i hope thats the reason. I don't blame you for not liking people. Ive only ever met 2 worth socialising with.
ReplyDeleteStick with the one you can always count on (yourself). good luck. ill be back as of Nov 5 if you were wondering.
So you may have stopped blogging... whatever - I'm pretty inconsistent with it as well.
ReplyDeleteRegardless, if I've realized anything this year it's that I really don't like people. It's nice to see other people share in my dislike of people. I've found all people do is let me down. While I can find certain individuals I can tolerate (not very many), it is the collective "people" that I absolutely cannot stand. Whenever I see a group strangers laugh I feel it is necessary to audibly laugh behind them as if I heard the joke. Of course when they look at me I stop and just stare at them blankly. I'm an ass for doing, and I'll probably get my ass kicked for doing it, but it is just so satisfying to do I can't help myself. I really don't like people.
i f3l u... ppl as a collective tend 2 b very very stupid...
ReplyDeletehello! =p I am your new follower! :) I like you and your blog!
ReplyDeleteyou're awsum... so many people go through phases without even realising it !! us humans are a lost cause.
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